I'm looking very large and in charge these days... not a fan (ain't Todd cute holding my purse?)
In other news... umm I got none. I'm 32 1/2 weeks and last weeks doctor's appointment went well. The doctor confirmed that I in fact am not having a small baby but we are looking at an 8 pounder (I'll take it). He kept saying I'm hiding the big baby well... I don't think I am anymore. I really like my doctor and I'm happy we found him. My next appointment isn't till 35 weeks and I must say I am scared for that appointment. After that appointment it's go time for whenever the baby decides to come and I must say he can come later rather than sooner. As excited as we are to meet this little boy, it's kind of scary to think I'll be a mom and in charge of a human being. I just hope my loving mommy instincts kick in because I'm not feeling very motherly these days (every little thing is kind of annoying me, I don't have much patience and I'm thinking that is needed with children). I am also stressing about everything but when Todd tells me to tell him all my stresses, it seems a tad ridiculous that I'm stressing at all. Oh and before I got pregnant and even up till a month ago, I wasn't worried about the whole birthing process but now as it gets close, I don't want to do it. I told Todd last night that I didn't want to do it and he said I didn't have to, the baby would just magically appear (I'm really liking that idea). I mean, it's got to be bad if a medicine was invented to be injected into your spine to numb your entire lower half. The doctor asked me if I had a birthing plan and I said "well it's going to happen real fast and I'm not going to feel a thing." He didn't say much except that he recommends the epidural and usually your first born takes a long time... come on doc, work with me here. I'm also nervous he'll come early and family wont be here to help... I don't know what I'm doing! My parents don't come in till the second week of October so he is just going to have to stay put till then... although staying put is uncomfortable. I thought I was uncomfortable a couple of weeks ago, that was sissy stuff. I constantly feel uncomfortable and constantly have the feeling to use the bathroom, apparently my bladder is a fun toy, and my ribs. I can't really bend over anymore and Todd has to assist me in putting on shoes and also getting up from most positions. I also have a constant need and desire to eat anything unhealthy and fattening, which after I eat all that stuff I'm depressed because I'm making my child unhealthy and gaining un-needed pounds... sigh, pregnancy, interesting ride. I have turned this into a huge complaining session so I should end with good things... we are so excited to meet this little boy and to cuddle him. I'm excited to see him for the first time and to finally know what he looks like. I just picture a little Todd jr and I couldn't ask for more. I have to admit one of the things I am looking forward to the most is seeing Todd see his son for the first time, he'll be such an amazing daddy (I'm also expecting some tears from Todd, it's the least he can do I think). Oh, oh, we are going to have a new nephew this week!! We are so happy and so sad we wont be there when Brian and Shelly welcome their new little person to the world. Speaking of family, ummm family, I know your all busy what with giving birth this week and raising children and jobs, but I miss my nieces and nephews and would love to see some pictures of them, work on that!! Ok, I'm done... man I need to learn to keep these things shorter...